….that there are so many things going on in my life and around me, and I want to blog about them. But, when it comes down to it, I feel overwhelmed and put it off. So maybe I’ll start with a general overview and see what happens. I’ll see if I can whip myself into action. 
The world around me is insane. Wall Street in turmoil and the insanity that ensues from that. Yeah, throwing money at idiots who are crooks is a good idea. Right. 
Our Senate and House just passed a bill that will do just that. Why do I feel violated right now? 
The Presidential campaign is astounding in it’s……fuckeduptedness. How can anyone…anyone who has a brain and a heart consider voting for McCain/Palin? Please answer that for me. I’m sure that people have a good reason for abusing someone else too…..rationalization runs wild, I guess.
My personal life is going through a plethora of changes right now. Months ago, I had been spending hours a day in Second Life and I have since cut way down. I’ve been spending more time in Real Life taking care of stuff, and also playing Out Of The Park Baseball. I have also been getting back in to meditation and a bit of yoga, as well as reading. And I’ve been trying to spend more time with my son and my wife. Jen and I have been having some problems, that SL seems to have not helped, and I’m concerned about it. I’m hoping we can work things out though.
And quite possibly the biggest change in my life is due to a comment made by my boss, that ignited a spark that has been kindling due to a half full reSLience kinda gal. Kimala has long been trying to get me to think positive and my boss mentioned a movie called The Secret, which reminded me of What The Bleep Do We Know?. I also was looking for a book for months, that I knew I had to have around here, yet could not find. A day after watching The Secret, I found The Life We Are Given, which is a book basically restating the premise of the movies. The book was right where I left it and easily found. These messages tie in neatly with two of my favorite past “gurus,” Neale Donald Walsch and Deepak Chopra.
Yes, all five of these messages are about creating our own reality. They are much more, though, particularly Bleep. Who am I? What shall I do? Who are you in relation to me? Who/what is God? How can I change my life? In short, I am a chip off the old block, and I’m referring to God Him/Her/Itself, not my earthly parents. I am, what an old mentor Stu used to call, a little chunk of God, and my business is about creating….creating my life….creating myself. We are one, not separate. We’re brothers and sisters in a sense, but in the absolute sense, we are one. Separation is an illusion. (This of course explains karma quite simply, as what I do to you, I am in essence doing to myself.) God is not some judge sitting in the sky ready to punish me eternally for making a fucking mistake. God is Love….is everwhere…..in me and you…no separation….does not behave like a human being, ie act hurt and retaliate if I don’t give Him/Her attention. God is kind of above that type of immaturity, you see? That’s why He/She is God, right? God is not five years old and spoiled. And, I can change my life by changing my mind. I only wish it were as easy as typing that. And maybe it is that easy? Is it possible that it is hard, because we say it is hard? Is that part of the reality I’ve created? I think so. So, it is as easy as typing this. 
Since I have been drawn into this path, many things have changed in my life. It’s been a “two steps forward, one step back” kind of progress, but things have changed in my life. Jen and I actually have a surplus of money right now. I feel somewhat more at peace, even though everything around me says that I should not feel that way. Why is this? Because I have reclaimed some of my power. I am realizing that I do not need you or McCain or the voters or anyone else, for me to live my life and be happy. Maybe tomorrow, when I am at work, I will forget this and lose my temper, but I’m guessing that something I’ve learned will seep in there and remind me of Who I am, and Who the Other is, and that maybe a bit of compassion is in order.
There is a very important turning point in Bleep, where Amanda is confronted by an experiment done in Japan that showed that blessing a simple substance like water changed how it appeared…how ice crystals grew. Water that was blessed and showered with love, grew beautiful crystals, and water that didn’t or was bombarded with hate…not so much. (Remember, that our bodies are over 90% water.) A stranger comes up to Amanda and looks at her and wonders, “If our thoughts can do that to water, just think about what our thoughts can do to us.” Needless to say, I’m blessing myself and showering myself with love more than I have in a long time, and I’m doing the same for others right now, too.
Do you believe in miracles? Ponder that for a while. 
