Family
Ego is such a destructive force. Everyone wants his or her agenda to go through. Why is that? Why is it so fucking important to have their own way, even at the expense of being happy? My brother is visiting his friends in Virginia right now so my mother is watching his daughter for five days. We were supposed to take Shania for a day to give my mother a break. The only problem is that after my brother relapsed, I pulled away from them out of self-preservation and in doing so, forgot to ask to have this Saturday off so we could watch Shania. Well, now my wife is pregnant and tired and not feeling too well, my mother seems to still be pissed because I didn’t call after the relapse, and everyone is going to be mad at me because I forgot to ask for a day off. No matter what I do, I’m fucked. Oh, well, I’m the one who fucked up so what the hell.
You deleted my comment. Heehee…we worked out a good solution so hopefully this will all be okay. I KNOW it will be. So buck up Daddy!
jenni said this on August 15th, 2002 at 4:34 pm
to coin a recovery phrase, “give yourself a break.”
chaos breeds mistakes. your brother’s relapse has done just that. the best news of all that i hear from you is that you are putting your recovery and your family first. if indeed you feel like your messed up, how about an amend and move on…?
thanks for being real. you help me stay real, and that helps keep me clean!
theophany said this on August 15th, 2002 at 6:14 pm