whitesail

I remember when I was a kid. I remember sitting in school and waiting for the time to pass and it was sooooo slooooowwwww. An hour took forever. I remember as I got older that time went by quicker and quicker and having older people tell my it just gets worse and worse as you get older. I now understand what they are talking about.

It seems absolutely impossible that Jake is almost sixteen months old now. It seems like it was yesterday that he joined us in this world. And now, here I am, almost 44 years old and I’m trying to squeeze so much into each day. I have to go to work. I have to sleep and eat. I also take care of Jake during the day when my wife is at work. And I have so much more that I want to do each day. I think I’ve posted this before, but it is just such a pressing issue with me. I’ve often thought about what I would do if I won the lottery or some such thing. [Of course, inheriting a bunch of money from relatives won’t happen now…but that’s another story… ]

I would learn and practice the guitar. I would play baseball simulations. I would play with my son. I would cook healthy meals. I would practice reiki much more often. I would spend more time in meditation and yoga. I would learn tai chi and maybe practice that in the park each morning. I would blog more often. There are so many things to do and so little time. It’s frustrating, to say the least.

So, today, I’ve decided that I must streamline my life. I must make difficult choices and cut out some things from my life that I really do like. That’s why I’m blogging today. Usually I’d be playing some baseball on the computer right now. And for those of you that don’t understand, including my wife, I really do love baseball. I love watching it. I love reading about it. And I love the strategy of it that comes through in two of the games that I play. So it might seem stupid, but it’s still tough for me.

This morning, I took Jake for a walk through the park across the street. We stopped at the playground and had some fun and then walked some more. I love that little guy so much. It’s so much fun watching him discover and watch and see. I’m jealous, too. I sometimes wish I could go back. A much simpler time. I long for that. Life seems so complicated and confusing now. So it’s time to simplify and remember……remember what’s important.

And there are really only three things that are really important. Jakob, Jenni and myself.