whitesail

Life is funny. When my life gets darkest, those are sometimes the brightest moments of my life.

Raise your eyes to a moonless sky
and try to wish upon a rising star
search all you want for her blessing
but you won’t find her sparkling there
Now cast your eyes to a part of the sky
where nothing but darkness unfolds
and watch as all around you
she reveals the brilliance of secrets untold - Crescent Moon by Mike Timmins

I’ve been sick for almost a week now. I’m pretty much over it, but when you’ve been run over by a truck, it takes longer to heal than when you get hit by a tricycle. Stomache flu. Absolutely and completely brutal. Devastating would be a better word. It would be easier to believe that some virus got in my system and wreaked havoc and I had nothing to do with it, but I know better. I’ve been living like a moron for a while now. I’m under a lot of stress and the holidays are here and I am not doing one whit to take care of myself physically, emotionally and spiritually.

And it all came crashing down on me this week. Then I realized that I’m still an addict and I still, when not spiritually fit, have a subtle death wish that will consume me if I let it. If I don’t find happiness within, I’ll look without and kill myself doing that.

If you don’t go within, you’ll go without - God speaking in Conservations With God Part One

Probably a good time to get busy again, huh?